Anyone Selling A Reborn Baby Out There?? 10 Points!!?

Ok Hi, this may be a long odd question but i mean it NO RUDE ANSWERS, NO JOKE ANSWERS!
For you honest good people sorry about that. Ok well I’m 13 years old and i want a reborn baby doll. If you don’t know what that is then don’t answer this or keep reading. I have wanted one ever since i was on youtube and saw one. that was 4 years ago. Our family has always been poor and could never afford one but now my mom lost her job and i think she may depressed. Well I really want one and it really killed me when about a year ago my friend got one … then another! They hardly even like their reborns and they offered to sell me one for 100$ but i do not have that much. You may be wondering why in 4 years i have not saved up much money this is because i have no allowance i live in a pretty bad neighborhood not the type that you want to go around selling stuff or babysitting. I had gotton a little money but my mom ”borrowed” it and she never pays me back and i know she can’t pay me back. Well i am in love with reborns and a friend on youtube told me she would give me hers and i was SO excited but then she said i am really annoying and said forget the doll. Then this other girl said she will give me a Ashton Drake but she changed her mind. Well I am really upset now. I have tried everything to get one. I REALLY want one from Linda Smith’s cozy kit. But they are expensive the lowest i ever saw for that doll from that kit was 50$! I wish i could buy one with all my heart i thought i would get one my room is already made up in a nursery and everything. I mean i spend most of my time online looking at them on youtube. I have spent HOURS imagining getting one and all the things i would do with it. I know this may seem a little crazy lol but its not i mean just like i think about it alot. I really want one and i just can’t wait to get one but i don’t think i could ever save up enough money and i want one NOW as odd as that sounds i have waited a really long time. the main place i look at them is youtube it kills me to see all of them that i can’t buy.I know i guess i am being dumb because i know it is just a doll but i want one. I want to say please send me a message on youtube i love to talk to people my name is Emily53793 please PM me. But my question really is does anyone have a reborn that won’t sell or something that they would sell to me cheap? I know its crazy! i just am really desperate for one. Does anyone have an old one that they never look at or play with they would sell me cheap? PLEASE i know its dumb but i am just asking! PLEASE PLEASE NO RUDE OR JOKE ANSWERS! thanks guys
I guess what i am asking is will anyone sell me a doll cheap? I know its hard to make them but i really want one one like 50$ PLEASE and thanks bye